"FEELING DISSOLVE "©a tool to facilitate the
FIFTH STATE of CONSCIOUSNESS
by Maud Nordwald Pollock
In 1995 Len Fliers wrote a paper called Demystifying mysticism: Finding
a developmental relationship between different ways of knowing.(1) His
article helped me to better position the work that I have developed since
1989, a tool to manage and sublimate feelings and thoughts i.e. the
emotions that I call "Feeling Dissolve"© .
To understand the purpose of Feeling Dissolve © and what it can accomplish it helpful to review
briefly the evolution of our consciousness, guided by Fliers insight and
my spiritual view.
FIRST ORDER OF CONSCIOUSNESS
In his article Flier separates the evolving consciousness into five
levels. Jean Piaget conceived a psychology of cognitive development, in
which the progress of an individual is based on qualitative ability to
take in more complex information. As a child grows up it not only knows
more, it knows in different ways.
Four year old children are presented with two glasses of water, one
tall and narrow the other shorter and wider, equal volume of water are
poured in both. When asked which glass had more water, at first they would
agree it was the same. When the same amount of water was taken from the
shorter glass and poured into the emptied taller narrower glass, the child
when asked, would reply that the latter glass had more water. This
experiment demonstrated that a young child relates to the world in terms
of what it sees. This way of experiencing is considered pre-operational.
When the water was poured back into the original glass, when questioned
the child would reply that the quantity was the same now, but not before.
Despite repeated attempts to make it clear that it was the same quantity
there was no way of making the small child realize otherwise. This
demonstrated that no matter how logically or concrete one tried to present
this reality to the child, or for that matter anyone at a certain level of
development, it was unable to be perceive at the next stage of
development. What I see is what I believe, and what I believe is true.
Robert Kegan developed constructive-developmental psychology, which
includes personality and classifies the first order of consciousness, the
development in a small child, age four, as being impulse based. The small
child accordingly takes as objects his/her sensations, it feels what it
sees. I feel that it has an impression, and in my experience an impression
is feeling based. My interpretation is that its experience is feeling
motivated, a small child is learning to deal with feelings and is
dominated by feelings, which supercede the ability to reason. According to
Flier the morality at this level is based on impulse. "If I feel like
hitting that other child because it is playing with my toy it is OK
because I feel like it."
Grown ups can partly remain at this stage of development, reflected by
this feeling based trait to see what we choose to see, and deny what we
don't want to see. This trait when practiced by groups Jean Houston calls
as "cultural lenses". A particularly poignant example of this phenomenon
is demonstrated by a group of natives discovered by anthropologists, a
tribe of living in the Klahary. These people believed that at the
boundaries of their territory was the end of the world. To cross this
boundary meant certain death. When anthropologists tried to demonstrate
that this belief was untrue by crossing the boundary, these natives cried
profusely stating that the other would die and stopped seeing the person.
To them that person simply disappeared in a void.(2)
In my view spirituality at this level of consciousness is imminent. A
small child lives the finer dimensions, it can remember, see, hear, smell
of feel presences of other vibratory levels of reality. When these are
reinforced they can become the point of reference of a lifetime of
knowing. Research demonstrates that small children two to three can
remember their time in-uterus or before.(3) But likewise these can be
confusing sources of information when denied by the outside
world.
SECOND ORDER OF CONSCIOUSNESS
The second order of consciousness, is entered approximately at the age
of seven. The seven year old is able to include to what it sees, what it
knows. The amount of water is the same, it is the shape that changed, it
is able to separate subject from object. This stage of development is
considered concrete- operational. I would interpret this to mean that it
comes to concrete things mind i.e. reason precedes feelings.
According to Kegan at this stage the child is able to order the
sensations into categories, durable categories that can be defined as
perceptions. The development that takes place is one where the evolution
of perception goes from taking something that is subject and recognizing
it as an object. However this order of consciousness is imbedded in needs,
desires and preferences. In my view the child is still dominated by
feelings, reason is influenced by feelings. Expressed as needs and desires
in the first person, his/her own needs and desires. These exist only in
relation him or herself, creating a morality of fairness as to "my" needs
and preferences. It is the phase in which the world revolves around us,
and has to comply to what we want, if this does not happen I am a victim
of the outer circumstances. The world is to blame and I don't feel in
control of it. Flier states that the second order the reasoning the
morality base is a "tit for tat" attitude. That of "an eye for an
eye."
In my view spirituality at this stage becomes conditioned by the
outside world in the form of religious beliefs. Although the ability to
perceive is still there it can become diminished by the immense input of
information from the outside world, which does not always correlate with
what the child is experiencing. The information becomes confusing and
since reason is starting to dominate it may be chosen as the primary mode
of reference. Intuition is subsumed to reason. i.e. The child who enters a
room where parents recently have had a big fight, experiences the
vibratory charge of the environment, knows there has been a fight. But
when confronting the parents, these pretend nothing has happened. This
confuses the child, who is right? The pretending parents or my perceived
feelings. Since children tend to trust their parents they submit to the
former version, unintentionally giving up their intuition.
Many years ago I experienced such an event with a unknown child. I was
swimming in a public pool when a stranger, a woman, come over to me to ask
me if I was OK. Her little daughter had told her I was not feeling well.
In fact physically I was fine, but emotionally I was in considerable pain.
This child had in some way noticed my distress, and sent her mother to
help. My first reaction was to put on the mask, saying there was nothing
wrong with me, which was true on the physical level. On second thought I
felt I owed the child an explanation and needed to validate her ability
and empathy. After confirming to the mother her child's insight, I swam
over to the 10 year old and thanked her for her concern, reassuring her
that she was right about my emotional state.
THE THIRD ORDER OF CONSCIOUSNESS
The third order of consciousness is awakened by feelings analogous to
those stimulated by a romantic love. At this stage of development the
individual is confronted with feelings for others. By now the
understanding is that the world does not revolve around me, I am part of
the world and have to make adjustments and compromises. The group is
experienced. There is a willingness to sublimate his or her own feelings,
to enter into a commitment and identify with the feelings of other with
empathy. I see this as the experiencing the sensation of love, a different
kind of love from parental love, in the form of cathexis when it has to do
with attraction to another.(4) The need for this different quality and the
desire to give it, is awakened. It is an intense more poignant quality of
feeling. Flier defines the moral of this order as based on mutual
expectations, those held in relationship. I view it as a need to have the
other live up to a commitment so as not to experience hurt feelings. The
motivating factor is the desire to control situations via these
expectations. The mind tries to control the situation to avoid feeling
unpleasant feelings. The attitude is "I am still a victim of circumstances
even though I try to control the world with my thinking and via my will."
"I" want things to be a certain way. The use of fear, pain and anger are
common to this phase.
This type of world view is again expressed through the tribal pattern.
It is a conditioned, structured form of reasoning, where controlling rules
are the basis of behavior. It is an emotional control that has a fear
base. Everyone has to think alike, dress alike, behave alike. Individual
thinking is subsumed to the group, be this the thinking of a sect,
religious beliefs, scientific, political, educational, moral, ethical,
cultural or sexual. The feeling of fear is used to manipulate, stimulating
fear of loss or abandonment. In relationships the state of symbiosis is
reflected by this level, which expresses the feeling of need, which is
fear based, fear of separation, fear of loss, fear of the pain of loss.
Although phases of symbiosis are also joy based, those stimulated by the
feelings of love or sharing an experience with loved ones. Flier notes
that in legal terms this order expresses itself as "The law is the law
because we all commit to it"(5) and if you don't watch out! In my view the
tendency of an individual in this groups dominated consciousness is to
give his/her power up to the group, letting the group decide, affect and
condition. The group and the individual create their own reality that
validates their vision and justifies their action.
At this stage of development like the previous ones, unless one has
experienced first hand something, being in love for example, one has no
understanding for the evolving experience of the other. Again there is no
way of convincing the other of the experience when the other has not lived
it. We cannot become other centered without the fundamental shared
experience. The 12 year old who has not yet been in love has no
understanding for the experience in the companion. Such an experience is
inconceivable. In fact confronting this experience can be threatening to
the inexperienced, stimulating aggressive behavior, in this case in the
form of ridicule of the other, as teenagers tend to do. The transcending
experience can seem to the inexperienced like an abandonment of
responsibility. A feeling of being left out or behind. The fear of change
is prevalent in this order of consciousness, holding on rigidly to certain
world views. Spirituality at this level of consciousness when considered,
is conditioned by an outside deity, that loves but also punishes when
disobeyed.
THE FOURTH ORDER OF CONSCIOUSNESS
The forth order of consciousness is the state where we break away from
the conditioning controlling behavior of the group. Reason seems to
sublimate feelings. For the first time the individual begins to see
herself/himself as a creator not only as a victim. The individual starts
taking responsibility for what happens in his/her life. In relationship
this is expressed by the desire for independence. The need to identify
with the other comes to a halt. An inner search for self is initiated.
According to Flier principles become the guiding force. They precede
relationship, the law. Freedom of choice and justice that are based on
principles. There is right and wrong but this is guided by principles. To
the other still locked into the third order of consciousness this too seem
like an abandonment of responsibility and the need to move in this
direction is inconceivable. However the motivating factor for each
transcendent step from one order to the other is "an irrefutable challenge
to ultimate reality"(6) My experience demonstrates that usually the shift
from one level of consciousness to another is accompanied with some event
or trauma that forces the process. Pain seems to have been the motivating
factor in most cases until now.
Spirituality at this stage of consciousness can become very ambivalent.
The denial of a supreme being, materialism and intellectualism driven by
mentally constructed logic may prevail. If integrated the acceptance of a
loving supreme divinity that guides benignly, letting us experience right
and wrong. Although the tendency to question the Supreme Being's wisdom
may be still prevail, when things appear to be wrong.
If the drive for transcendence is spiritually motivated the challenge
becomes even greater, because the fourth order of consciousness is still
conditioned by views that the ultimate reality is based on principles and
pairs of opposites or judgments. My work demonstrates that even though
judgments are based on principles, seeming to by conditioned by reason,
judgments are feeling based.
THE FIFTH ORDER OF CONSCIOUSNESS BUDIHHIC
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The shift to the fifth order of consciousness requires an abandonment
of that which is the principled morality, the feeling that something is
right and wrong. It requires the sublimation of feelings. It is the
challenge of moving beyond judgment. Flier notes that morality is not
abandoned, a new reality is discovered. In my view this reality is one
that is beyond a feeling conditioned morality. At last the individual
understands that they are neither victim or victimizer, but both and that
the process is co-created. Lessons in which we are all students and
teachers at the same time. A mystic state is reached. In this state
nothing is either right or wrong, it simply is. And again this state can
not be reached via the intellect, by trying to understand it. It is a
state of knowing. No different than each progressive state on the ladder
of transcendence, this knowing can seem inconceivable to someone of the
fourth order level. "The fifth order of consciousness is enlightenment in
secular terms."(7) Like Flier, I agree that there are stages of unfolding
and insight at this fifth order, like at all the others, yet once someone
has achieved it regardless of the direction he/she come from they are at
the same stage of consciousness. The realization is oneness, there is no
difference between you and me, I am you and you are me, and neither, all
at the same time. I refer to this state as that of "Unconditional Love",
where no judgment or attachment exist. This state bespeaks Wisdom,
everything is seen from the reference point of the greater picture, as
simply being. This state moves beyond wanting to understand or know, it is
the void and the fullness, the light and the dark. It is as one of my
participants expressed so beautifully, beyond the "knowing everything", it
is the "being everything."(8) When reached this state is termed in
Sanskrit, Samadhi. The path one takes to reach that state in Zen tradition
is known as the Tao, in Chinese, or in Hindu tradition as Dharma, a
Sanskrit word. At this stage we accept that we are one with the supreme,
that the supreme is us. That all of us are "God" in western layman's
language.
THE EVOLUTION OF FEELING
DISSOLVE - HOW -WHY I DEVELOPED IT
One of my earliest major shift of order come when I was 29 and
suffering of marital problems. My major teacher at the time was Dr. Albert
Ellis, the founder of Rational Emotive Therapy. In therapy with him I
learned that "we are valuable because we are" and "no one can make one
angry, the anger is in ourselves". This presence of mind allowed me to
change many of my conceptions of life, broaden my human understanding and
started me taking responsibility for my life. Non the less, the fact that
I was responsible for my suffering, understood intellectually did not
diminish the pain. Even though I learned the difference between reasoning
and rationalizing, thanks to Dr. Ellis, I could not reason away the pain
fear, anger etc. It was as if I learned the alphabet from A to N and was
missing M to Z.
The next major shift in consciousness come when I was 37 after the
removal and loss of my second child in the second trimester of my
pregnancy. This event was followed by several days in intensive care in
the state of unconsciousness. Although a Catholic of choice at a young
age, I had in my early twenties abandoned what I considered a hypocritical
and dogmatized form of religion. Non the less I was ambivalent
spiritually, neither denying nor believing in God. After my physical
trauma, I developed an intense interest in meditation, stimulated by a
similar interest of friend who had what is recognized as an out of body
experience during surgery. Another friend sent me to a very competent
medium, who's astonishing gift so intrigued me that I wondered why she
could do that and I not. I proceeded for 8 years to immerse myself
completely in the study and reading of spiritual books, with the subtle
guidance of the teacher who soon appeared. Because life circumstances
permitted me the freedom to indulge this thirst for understanding, I
finally decided to concretize this in some form, opting to study
philosophy. I can only say that after all those years of reading
particularly Alice Baily, the philosophers like Kant, Hegel etc., were
easy to understand.
In the late 1970's as my second marriage was coming to an end, I turned
to Dr. Ellis for help once more, in my last vestige of hope. My then
husband suffered from chemical imbalance which causes manic-depression and
had turned extremely manic, despite his medication. In one of those last
therapy sessions I sat in my consternation, helplessness and frustration
pouring out my sorrows to Dr. Ellis, to which he said "Mrs. Pollock, I
will not listen to your complaints about your husband any longer, his
problems make him autistic, you cannot change him. Either you accept him
unconditionally as he is or you divorce him."(9) We separated that
summer.
The next major shift in consciousness come in the summer of 1982, when
I was confronted with the human potential ability to heal with the hands
through the participation in my first Therapeutic Touch (10) course. It
was as I tell my participants, "going from believing to knowing." After
that there was no doubt in my mind that we all have this potential.
Opportunity to teach this method come two years later from an Institute
for New Medicine in Milan, Italy.(11)
Since 1984 I have been teaching Therapeutic Touch in Europe, first in
Italy, then Germany, Switzerland and Austria. Because I speak Italian and
German, as well as Spanish, I am able to give these workshops in the
county's language. This enabled me to have an immediate interaction with
my participants. The structure of my workshops consists of giving the
participant a spiritual base, along with practical experience, which
enables the individual to integrate in a rational way the information and
ability s/he is developing. i.e. the ability to heal others with the
hands. It did not take me long to realized that I had to find a way to
deal with my participants profuse inclination towards "helpers syndrome".
A syndrome that has as its base a poor self image. How could I assist
these blossoming healers to detach from the process enough, to simply let
it happen. All this in the short period of four days, the time that I had
them in my workshop. This poor self image was particularly called to my
attention in a workshop for nursing professionals. One of the nurses
exclaimed in despair "How can we love and help other unconditionally when
we don't even love ourselves."(12)
In the early 80's I attended many workshops at the Omega Institute for
Holistic Studies.(13) Amongst these one on the method called "Open Focus"
developed by Dr. Lester Fehme, another on the method called "Focusing"
developed by Dr. Eugene Gendlin.(14) Both these methods intrigued me but
not enough to pursue them in depth. In 1986 Brennan published a book
called "Hands of Light"(15) This book was key, it confirmed my own
perception of the different vibratory layers I experienced with my hands,
but for which I had no explanation based on the then available literature.
Thanks to Brennan's work and in collaboration with one of my European
participants Hans Zurfluh, an extremely gifted clairvoyant, from my
experience as competent as Brennan, I was able to understand, recognize
and palpate the configurations of our subtle energy fields. As a result I
included into my work a more detailed definition of spiritual anatomy.
In 1988 I come across the work of a man called Lester Levinson. Along
with his then companion Virginia Lloyd who taught it, Levinson had
developed a technique which they called The Sedona Release Technique.
Levinson, a physicist by profession had a life threatening heart attack in
the early 1950's. At that time his heart was so severely damaged that the
doctors told him he would never be able to work again. In some particular
way, a way that took him almost 20 years to define, Levinson was able to
heal his heart condition. Not only did he heal himself, he went back to
work and earned several million dollars, enough to retire and dedicate the
rest of his life to spiritual work. When I come across the Sedona Release
Technique it's approach was directed in the first place to assist people
in achieving material success. How to be better at this or that. Although
I was already familiar with their basic precepts which are like the ones I
had learned from Dr. Ellis, "that we cannot change anyone or anything",
they had something else. This something that I already knew from my work
with Therapeutic Touch, but had not identified so clearly. They dealt with
feelings and by using a verbal technique generated a confrontation with
the feeling that stimulated a release. They also categorized feelings,
based on Buddhist and Taoist teachings. Here at last was an opportunity to
deal with the missing letters M to Z. Influenced no doubt by Levinson's
vision I adapted some of these concepts, synthesized them with my former
knowledge to create my own method.(16) I call this method "Feeling
Dissolve"© .
Since 1989 I have been teaching and learning more and more about
"Feeling Dissolve"©. A path to Unconditional Love, the fifth order of
Consciousness can be created by Feeling Dissolve . "Feeling Dissolve"© is
an energetic technique and it is also a world view. In 1994 a book that
took me 5 years to write was published in Germany. Its original title
"Unconditional Love". But as we have already learned, fourth order
consciousness cannot understand fifth order knowing, so its title was
changed.(17) In this
book I relay the whole reason for, why and how of "Feeling Dissolve"© and
I also teach Therapeutic Touch, I call the two methods together a New
Synthesis for Healing.
"FEELING DISSOLVE"©
The basic precept of "Feeling Dissolve"© is that we are first and
foremost Spiritual Beings of Light immersed in dense matter and having a
material experience. Our physical body is the core of our light structure.
We consist of many different Light bodies, energetic structures that
vibrate at a different frequencies, that permeate and surround our core.
These Light bodies at different subtler vibratory frequencies can be
perceived, seen, felt with the hands. Some individuals can experience
these vibratory qualities by smelling or hearing them.(18)
"Feeling Dissolve"© concerns itself with the first five vibratory
layers beyond the physical. Here is a brief description of
these.
THE FIRST LAYER - The Etheric Body
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The first layer I call Etheric and it concerns itself with the well
being of the physical. Its structure consists of meridians, millions of
them, and we are familiar with function via acupuncture, kinesiology,
shiatsu and so on. The Etheric body can be felt a about 12 centimeters, 5
inches approximately, beyond the periphery of the physical. Blocks in the
Etheric body create health problems in the physical.
THE SECOND LAYER - The Feeling Body press icon for image
The second Light body I call the Feeling Body. It is the container that
registers and deals with all our "present life" feelings and is a major
structure in the work of "Feeling Dissolve"©. It extends approximately
30cm - 12 to 15 inches beyond the periphery of the physical. Its
consistency is less structured and more cloud like. Feelings can be seen
clairvoyantly as colors that surround and permeate the physical body. They
can be felt as sticky, electric, lumpy, prickly, wave like, warm, cold, a
void and volume. Feelings stagnate and clump together blocking the flow of
information on the one hand. Secondly these blocks interfere with the
optimal function of the Etheric body and so they are one of the primary
causes of dis-ease. Accumulated feelings aside from being disturbing are
energy consuming. The more unresolved feelings are collected the greater
the energy needed to keep these at bay. Feelings are like software stored
in a computer, too much of it creates an overload, causing the computer to
crash. Deep Depression expresses this kind of overload. Accumulated
feelings affect our thinking. It is as if we had a glass bubble
surrounding us, the more feelings we hold the dirtier this bubble becomes.
Our world view is influenced by this dirt, we don's see it, but see the
world through it. The more dirt, the less light, diminishing our ability
to have insight. Or our insight is affected, colored, distorted by this
barrier of "dirt." We call this type of insight, judgment,
opinion.
THE THIRD LAYER - The Mental Body press icon for image
The third Light Body that "Feeling Dissolve"© is concerned with is the
Mental Body, it is the container and processor of our thoughts. Our
current life thoughts. These thoughts are constructed geometric forms,
that manifest when stimulated from the vibratory information bank. One
could liken this information to the hardware of the computer. Its quality
enables us to reason. Naturally if the Feeling body's bubble is covered
with dirt, information is unable to come through in its pure form. Bad
software does not let the hardware of the computer work at its optimum.
This vibratory configuration extends out to where the tip of the fingers
reach when the arms are outstretched. It has a structured quality
different from the Etheric. The former three light bodies mold themselves
around the physical form. The Mental Body together with the Feeling Body
form an EMOTION. EMOTIONS are transformed to insight when the conditioning
feeling is dissolved.
THE FOURTH LAYER - The Astral Body press icon for image
The fourth Light Body, I call the Astral, it extends several feet
beyond the physical periphery and it becomes an egg shaped container. The
vibrational information contained by this body consists of unresolved
feelings and thoughts, emotional memories from "other" (19) life
experiences. These memories can be dormant, or "current life" (20) events,
places or people can trigger a reaction or color our perspective.
Resolving patterns that have been established at another time in our
holographic history becomes one of the functions of "this current" life.
These emotional patterns are the feeling qualities underlying feelings
collected in the Feeling body.
THE FIFTH LAYER - The Cobalt Egg
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The fifth Light Body, I call the Cobalt Egg, although its form is a
something between a an ovoid and a sphere. It is a matrix body, holding
the memory of the physical structure, the memory of the physical body in
its perfect state. It is the boundary that keeps us in form. I refer to it
as our "cosmic womb". This body is important in "Feeling Dissolve"©
because it contains in it the four previous bodies and is responsible for
the physical and emotional plasticity of the person. Spontaneous healing
is the responsibility of this body. It is, once more based on Pier Luigi's
experience and words, "our "master body" the control center that rules
over all the others."
PHYSICAL PLASTICITY - SPONTANEOUS HEALING AND MULTI PERSONALITY
PHENOMENA
Before I explain the procedure of "Feeling Dissolve"©, I would
like to touch on two types of phenomena, that concern this latter body,
and reconfirm that physical matter is an illusion. It is as if that which
we call "life" is really the dream, and our dream state is the real
reality. Without going into the philosophical discussions that this idea
provokes, let me explain. In the late mid 1980's Brendan O'Reagan the now
defunct director of Research of the Institute of Noetic Sciences decided
to study spontaneous healing.(21) He states in a paper (22) that "Dr. Frank Putnam of the
National Institute of Health, one of the country's experts on the subject
(Multiple personality), has found that the electroencephalogram (EEGs) of
people who go from one personality to another will change as dramatically
as though the electrodes had been taken off one person and placed on
another. The difference in brain activity is that great. Most intriguing
is that some of these people will be allergic to a drug in one personality
and not allergic to it in another. Some cases have been reported of women
who've had three menstrual periods in each month because they have three
different personalities, each one with its own cycle. A more peculiar
situation.....I've heard of four cases,....of eye colors changing between
personalities. What all of this implies is that there is an extraordinary
plasticity in the relationship between mind and body."(23)
Or consider the case Vittorio Michelli, it is considered one of the 60
proven miracles of Lourdes accepted by the Vatican. This man suffered of a
tumor of fusiform carcinoma in the pelvic bone. He was put into a frame
from the pelvis to the feet to immobilize him and was to be treated with
radiotherapy. Without being treated he was discharged. Ten months later
there was increased radiological evidence of "persistent bony destruction,
loss of movement of the left limb, progressive deterioration. [In fact the
whole hip was being destroyed by the bone; it was being eaten away. He was
literally falling apart- legs were being separated, this mass was growing,
and the actual bone of the pelvis was disintegrating.] On the 24th of May,
1963 [this approximately a year after the original diagnosis] the patient
left for Lourdes where he was bathed, in his plaster, several
times." "After about a month, his doctor finally consented to take his
cast off and take another x-ray. ...In essence the tumor was getting
smaller and smaller. It was regressing. Then the tumor disappeared and the
bone began to re-grow and completely reconstruct itself. Michelli was able
to walk again two months after his return from Lourdes."(24) The resulting
report states "an unforeseen and even overwhelming bone reconstruction has
taken place of a type unknown in the annals of world medicine."..."the
patient is alive and in a flourishing state of health nine years after his
return from Lourdes."(25)
Why is the above information important in the case of "Feeling
Dissolve"© ? Because the work done with "Feeling Dissolve"© demonstrates
our Emotional plasticity. The illusion of our beliefs about human
interaction. Experiences recounted by participants of the results attained
from the implementation of "Feeling Dissolve"© are just as dramatic from
the emotional point of view, as the above from the physical. Let me
present you with the experience of Do an artist from Milan. (26)
She stated " on the way to the workshop I wanted to visit my mother who
lives in Modena. That morning as I prepared to leave I decided to work on
my feelings about her. I located the feeling in my body, gave it an image,
and proceeded to stroke it out, until the image was gone. I was astounded
at the images I got, dragons, monsters and on and on. It took me all day,
but I was determined. In the evening I finally left for Modena. When I
arrived, what magic! my mother was a changed person, she was totally
different form the way I had perceived her before. For the first time I
was able to see our similarities and really like her."
This is what Vera's experienced. (27) Vera was working on a masters
degree (Diplom in Germany) in Adult Education. Vera is very thorough and
ambitious, usually doing more than is needed. When she met with the
professor who was to guide her dissertation, the meeting went as follows.
Vera:" He was in a hurry, had little time for me, didn't ask me what I
wanted but told me what he thought I had to do. He said you can do this
and that, and more and more. I felt totally overwhelmed, overrun and
unacknowledged, in a word unsatisfied. I was livid when I left. I
considered dropping this professor although he was the best person for my
work. Then I decided to look within myself. I realized that all those
feeling were my issues. I worked on my feelings, and worked and worked. I
decided to request a second meeting, intending in any case to tell him how
I had felt overrun. When I entered his office before me sat a totally
different person. He had left a meeting especially to meet me, excused
himself for not having enough time, even though we spent over and hour
together. He listened patiently and suggested that I do less, not more. As
we left he again apologized for not having enough time, and what really
stunned me were his final words. "Are you satisfied now?". Needless to say
I never said anything about feeling overwhelmed." Vera realized that her
work on herself, just like Do, was what enabled the other to change. These
are two examples of the many I have collected through recounting. There
are no statistics yet to the validate the efficacy of this method. No
clinician has done a research study. This is due partially because only
recently has the feedback accumulated enough to confirm the method. Only
recently have I been able to access the professionals needed to verify
this work in a professional context. In Italy it is not so important to do
clinical studies outside the university environment. To do a competent
study, the practitioner has to live the method. For the moment this is a
rarity, I know of only a few individuals, my participants who I would
acknowledge as competent. Feeling Dissolve requires discipline,
willingness to self examination and constant observation of oneself. It is
a spiritual process that continues to challenge our Ego, as we go through
the shadow into the light, in spiral form.
"FEELING DISSOLVE" ©- THE PRECEPTS AND
CATEGORIES
When we are in grace before we are born in time and space, we are
immersed in love, peace, harmony, wisdom and joy. We belong, are safe and
secure, as viewed with our human point of view. When we enter matter we
are separated from these states. I believe that the time is right now, so
that the scope of more and more of us is to integrate these state while in
time and space. To be able to experience these states while being in form,
enabling others to come to these states more effortlessly, due to our
effort. To create a morphogenic resonance by coding into the collective
unconscious this faculty, for the benefit of all humanity. Spiritually
seen this is a form of service. The way we fulfill this service is
immaterial. "Feeling Dissolve"© is one way.
Being separated from that state of supreme love creates a yearning, a
deep yearning for this love which makes us feel secure. The fifth state of
consciousness is this state of oneness. When in this state there is
acceptance of things as being, neither good nor bad. A feeling free state
of wisdom and empathy, a state of Unconditional Love. When we are in
judgment we are conditioned by feelings. The scope of "Feeling Dissolve"©
is to enable us to move beyond judgment.
To enable us to help ourselves, so as to master our emotions,
guidelines have to be available. Here are the guidelines:
As stated before a basic precept of "Feeling Dissolve"© is that
feelings are the source of judgment. Consequently the refusal to accept
things as they are stimulates feelings in us. Retained feelings cost us
energy, as mentioned earlier and distort our ability to reason.
Consequently here is a basic thought "Any thing, person, event or place I
want to change, want to have differently from the way it is, stimulates a
feeling in me, a feeling that can be dissolved."
I have classified energy consuming feelings into two primary
categories. The first category reflects our need for love, which I call
"Lack of Love". Any experience we have in which we don't feel loved is
reflected by this category. This feeling is not derived from the lack of
love by others, it's source is our own lack of love for ourselves. What
the others are doing, when we feel hurt due to their actions is to
stimulate or remind us that we "Lack love" for ourselves. If feeling loved
makes us feel secure and in control, then the consequence of not feeling
loved is that we feel disempowered. When we feel disempowered we
compensate, one of the ways is to try to feel powerful and in control.
This behavior is reflected particularly by the third state of
consciousness. Although the fourth state of consciousness supports this
also, but in a subtler and more sophisticated way. The second primary
category of feeling I call "Lack of Influence". It reflects our feelings
of disempowerment and lack of control, of situations, events and
people.
To start with we have the two primary categories of energy consuming
feelings, "Lack of Love" and "Lack of Influence". These primary categories
can be used to identify feelings raised in situations that are
nondescript, or there are a collection of feeling. To particularize the
feeling more, I have divide the two primary feeling categories into groups
of seven energy consuming feelings. These groups are scaled according to
the amount of energy they require to keep them suppressed. The most energy
consuming feeling is HOPELESSNESS, a subcategory of "Lack of Influence"
simplified "LI"; the second most energy consuming feeling is PAIN, sorrow,
a subcategory of "Lack of Love", simplified "LL"; the third most energy
consuming feeling is FEAR a subcategory of "LI"; the fourth energy
consuming feeling, is GUILT a subcategory of "LL"; the fifth is DESIRE,
wanting, a subcategory of "LI"; the sixth is ANGER, a subcategory of "LI"
Anger uses less energy because it can be expressed. Great amounts of
unexpressed anger leads to depression. Deeply felt unexpressed Pain can
transforms itself into Anger. The last and least energy consuming feeling
is ARROGANCE, it is a subcategory of "LL".
Up to now we have been examining energy consuming feelings. There are
also feelings that generate energy. The first of these is VALOR, reflected
by courage. The courage to undertake something. However this is not always
a pure feeling, its motivating factor can be Anger. The ideal motivation
is when it is stimulated by LOVE. Unconditional Love. Love for the victim
and for the victimizer. The fifth state of consciousness. Valor motivated
by the fourth state is feeling conditioned, because it is still based on
principles. And principles as discussed previously, are judgments. The
next energy generating state, is that of ACCEPTANCE. Acceptance is beyond
feeling, it a state in which things, people, situations simply ARE. It is
a state of "IS"ness. Things are neither good nor bad they simply are. The
more we are in ACCEPTANCE the more we experience the state of HARMONY,
which is peace, the next state. Ultimately out of HARMONY prevails
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. This state is a state of bliss, of oneness.
The above mentioned are the feelings we can have. Energy consuming ones
which transformed become states of ACCEPTANCE, HARMONY and UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE. The feelings are called by a name, HOPELESSNESS, PAIN, FEAR, GUILT,
DESIRE, ANGER, ARROGANCE. Giving names to these feelings is to reduce the
multitude of expressions that we use for each one of the feelings to seven
simple terms. Just a few examples, Boredom is word that is a minimal
reflection of Hopelessness, Despair is another; Anxiety is another word
for Fear; Wanting is one for Desire, Rage is one for Anger; Forgiving one
that expresses Arrogance. To forgive someone is to assume someone has done
something wrong. This is a judgment. Since there is neither right nor
wrong, there is nothing to forgive. Feeling wronged, places us into a
stance of victim and the other into the role of victimizer. From the fifth
state of consciousness we accept that we are co-creators, creating
experiences for lesson learning purpose of recognizing the held feelings,
which then can be sublimated. In my case by using "Feeling Dissolve"©
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HOW "FEELING DISSOLVE"© WORKS
Earlier we discussed the different Light Bodies, Feelings as stated,
accumulate in the Feeling Body. Feelings, even though we name them, are
abstract something that we feel as uncomfortable some where in our body.
Over the years of working with this method, I discovered that one of the
fastest ways to access accumulated feelings, and enable us to recognize
how intense, big or small the feeling is, is to give it a form. The system
works like the wave and the particle. An electron is a wave, until
attention is focused on it in the form of a lazar beam. The moment a lazar
contacts the wave the electron becomes a particle. The same thing happens
with feelings, these abstract something float around and though the
physical body like meaningless clouds. When we think of an event we
experience this abstract something somewhere in our body. This can be
inside or on the surface. By localizing this abstract something we are
attending to it, by giving it a form we are concretizing it. This form can
be an object that has a size, volume, can be a container with something in
it. It can be large or small, have a color, feel heavy or dense. After
recognizing the feeling, accepting it, if you will, it is dissolved. In my
work I use techniques that derive from Therapeutic Touch, pulling,
stroking the image based feeling out of the body, using my hands, until
the image has disappeared. When process is complete, light is imagined
filling the space. When the light does not go in, it is a clue that other
feelings are still held in that area, and the procedure is repeated until
the space fills completely with light.
Once the feeling has been dissolved the individual checks back on the
event that stimulated the feeling. If the procedure is successful, the
event is neutralized, seems never to have happened, moves far away and/or
new insight into the situation is attained. The process is very easy,
uncomplicated extremely fast and immensely successful. I have been able to
resolved deep traumas of sexual abuse carried in the psyche of the
individual for years, in minutes. I have discovered that in our
multi-dimensionality we are more complicated than I imagined, but things
are simpler to deal with than we can imagine. We don't have to live
through our traumas by re-experiencing them, we can create metaphors for
them, dissolving them in moments. With "Feeling Dissolve"© in action we
can learn to observe ourselves from moment to moment. The more we use it
the less we need it, and although a life that is lived never ceases to be
a challenge for growth. These ups and downs change configuration, the
spaces between the downs becoming ever greater, less frequent, and when
these come the time spent confronting them shorter and shorter. Weeks of
suffering are reduced to days, days to hours, hours to minutes.
The consequence of all this is that life becomes clearer, more joyful,
harmonious, creative. Needyness disappears, replaced by satisfaction,
faith and purpose. The purpose to experience our light, be light, share
light and love, with one and all, all the time, any where. As we master
our Feeling Body our Mental Body becomes master, filled with wisdom and
clarity. At a higher frequency, the consequence of clearing out held
feelings from Feeling Body, is that we are able to clear out older held
dross of the Astral Body, clearing the way for UNCONDITIONAL LOVE to
permeate our being. The Etheric Body responsible for our health is less
stressed, functions better, and the capacity to heal ourselves is
increased monumentally by allowing the energy to flow freely from body to
body that allows the innate knowing of the Cobalt Egg to support our good
health. Non of this should be desired or strived for, it is a process that
happens easily, by itself as we move from moment to moment with ever more
faith, clarity, wisdom, joy, harmony and love.
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The steps defined as they are in my forthcoming book "Eleven Steps to Emotional Balance and Clarity of Mind"
How to use "Feeling Dissolve"© to reduce stress, increase Emotional
Intelligence by mastering the emotions
THE 11 STEPS OF "FEELING
DISSOLVE"©
# 1) IDENTIFYING THE EVENT THAT STIMULATES THE
FEELING
Is there anything that happened today or recently that bothers me, a
person or a situation that I would like different than it is?
# 2) RECOGNIZING THE KIND OF FEELING IT IS.
Is it a feeling of Lack of Love I don’t feel accepted in some way, or
feel hurt. Or is it a feeling of Lack of Influence, do I want a situation
or person to be different from the way they are?
# 3) LOCATING THE FEELING. WHERE DO I FEEL IT?.
Is it in my body, or outside my body?
# 4) USING CREATIVE IMAGINATION - WHAT DOES
FEELINGS LOOK OR FEEL LIKE.
Is the feeling a container with content? A pot or
something else? Is it big or little? Is it dense or transparent? Is it
hard or soft? Is it thick or thin? Is it heavy or light? Is it dark or
light? Does it have a color? Is it something else? Perhaps it is only a
vibration, not an image, or a smell, or even a geometric form. No matter
what you experience focus on that something
# 5) ATTEND TO THE FEELING - keep your attention on the feeling, its image'
# 6) ASK YOURSELF: "DO I WANT TO HOLD ON TO MY
FEELING?"
Your answer would be NO! ( Remember that by materializing this metaphor
(the form) for the feeling we are observing it, acknowledging it,
recognizing that we have it. That is our intent. The purpose of this
exercise is not to get rid of the feeling, even though the outcome is that
it dissolves.
# 7) USING OUR HANDS AS A HELPING INSTRUMENT TO DISSOLVE THE FEELING,
SWEEP UNTIL THE IMAGE HAS DISAPPEARED.
Using the hands is helpful especially at the beginning when we first
use this method, it is useful for very dense feelings. Try to experience
the quality of the vibration as you pull it our, is it prickly, sticky,
cold, like a wave of hot air, otherwise? If it is too large or dense, try
rubbing your hands together as if you were undoing it. It does not matter
what quality you expedience or even if you perceive any at all, especially
at first. It is interesting that we can be aware that feelings have a
qualities at all.
# 8) CHECK IF AN EMPTY SPACE HAS BEEN CREATED BY THE FEELING THAT
- FILL THE VOID WITH LIGHT.
Can you fill the void with light? Does the light switch go on? or
whatever your other choices is? a candle? sun light? a flood light,? Does
the space becomes flooded with light? Or do you have a warm feeling in the
area where the feeling used to be? Does it only fill partially with light?
In this case or if it does not receive light at all, you have other
feelings blocking and you need to re- do your process starting with Step #
1.
# 9) RE-EVALUATE - HOW DO I FEEL NOW ABOUT THE SITUATION?
We re-evaluate as we work though a situation, to reach the neutral
state. Once you have truly dissolved the feeling, reached the state of
acceptance about the person or situation, what you experience will depend
on the situation. You may feel more relaxed, confident if it is something
you have to face, a decision you have to make. Or if it is something that
bothered you it may have distanced itself from you, as if it never
happened, become unimportant, or you may gain a new perspective, new
understanding.
# 10) IF A NEW FEELING COMES UP, REPEAT THE PROCESS.
You already may have done so if the space did not fill with light. But
even if it did sometimes when we review the situation a new feeling
presents itself and we start with Step # 1 again.
# 11) RECOGNIZE SOME OF MY BODY FELT FEELINGS WHEN I HAVE DISSOLVED THE
FEELING? Do I let out a big sigh? Can I breathe better?
Deeper? Do I feel more relaxed? More peaceful?
1. Fliers, Len. Demystifying
mysticism: Finding a developmental relationship between different ways of
knowing. The Journal of Trans Personal
Psychology. Volume 27 Number 2, 1995 pg.131 - 152
2.Houston, Jean: "The Possible Human course
in Extending Your physical, Mental and Creative Abilities." J.P. Tarcher,
los Angeles 1982.
3.Verny, Thomas, "The Secret Life of the
Unborn Child". New York, Dell Publishing, 1981.
4.Peck, M Scott, "The Road Less Traveled" A
New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth, New York,
Simon and Schuster. Peck calls the first phase of attraction or
in-lovedness, which is closer to infatuation than actual loving,
cathexis.
5.Peck, M Scott, "The Road Less Traveled" A
New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth, New York,
Simon and Schuster. Peck calls the first phase of attraction or
in-lovedness, which is closer to infatuation than actual loving,
cathexis.
6.ibid. pg 139
7.Fliers, Len. Demystifying mysticism:
Finding a developmental relationship between different ways of knowing.
The Journal of Trans Personal Psychology. Volume 27 Number 2, 1995
pg.140
8.Pier Luigi's shared experience as related
to the group after a "Light Body" guided imagery, during an MNP's New
Synthesis Workshop, in Milan, Italy, September, 1989.
9.Therapy session with Dr. Albert Ellis and
Maud Nordwald Pollock Spring of 1980.
10.Therapeutic Touch courses offered by New
York City's New York University's School of Nursing. July 1982.
11.Libera Post Universitá della Nuova
Medicina, Corso XXII Marzo 57, Milan, Italy. Founded and run by the
pioneers in Hypnosis and Psychologia della Scritura (psychology of
handwriting.) Dr. Marco Marchesan and Rolando Marchesan, his
son.
12.Pollock, Maud Nordwald, personal
experience Workshop "Therapeutic Touch" April 1988 Einsideln,
Switzerland.
13.The Omega Institute for Holistic Studies,
Rhinebeck, New York.
14.Gendlin, Eugene T., "Focusing" New York,
Bantam New Age Books., 1983.
15.Brennan, Barbara Ann. "Hands of Light"
How to heal with your hands. original publication 1986 New York, Bantam
New Age Books 1988.
16.This includes all my work with Dr. Ellis,
a newly discerned intent of "Focusing", understandings I derived from my
work with NLP and a new way of implementing aspects of Therapeutic
Touch
17,Pollock, Maud Nordwald, "Vom Herzen durch
die Hände" Bedingungslose Liebe und Therapeutic Touch. Hermann Bauer
Verlag, Freiburg, Germany, March 1994. 3rd edition 1998."Dal Cuore
Attraverso le Mani" Amore incondizionato e Therapeutic Touch,
Longanesi& Co. Editore, Milan, Italy, March 1995. "From the Heart
through the hands" in Russian, Valery Zalinsky Publisher, St. Petersburg,
Russia, May 1995.
18.This information is based on experience.
I have learned of the abilities of my participants over the years, in many
workshops. In several workshops in Berlin in the 1990's my participants
Tamara, would exclaim as someone was dissolving a feeling "Ehh! it
stinks!" Likewise she would smell the aroma of roses under other
circumstances. Smelling the scent of Roses, or other flower like smells is
very common during meditation. In a Therapeutic Touch workshop in Zurich
summer of 1995, a medical doctor from Austria heard tapping, gurgling,
bells ringing while he examined the energy field of his subject with his
hands. Hearing bells tinkling, chimes and heavenly music is also quite
common during meditations.
19.By "other" I mean a past or future life,
the memory of which is coded into the Astral body. I am basing my
conclusion of this fact on information obtained from my participants in my
workshops since 1984, my personal experience and literature that confirms
Reincarnation as a probability.
20.The life being lived in the
20th / 21st century on planet Earth.
21.O'Regan, Brendan. Inner Mechanisms of the
Healing Response. A systematic research data bank, collecting information
on spontaneous remission and healing and associated phenomena. Sponsored
and maintained by the Institute of Noetic Sciences, 475 Gate Five Road,
Suit 300, P.O. Box 97, Sausalito, Ca 949966-0097
22. O'Regan, Brendan. Vice President for
Research. "Healing, Remission and Miracle Cures". given at the American
University, Washington D.C. Friday, December 5, 1986. Published by the
Institute of Noetic Sciences, 1987.
23.Ibid. pg.4
24.Ibid. pg.9
25.Ibid. pg.9
26.Do was a first time participant. Her
neighbor and friend was a repeat participant and told her about "Feeling
Dissolve,©" . Do did this work on her own, shortly
before she come to the workshop, using the book and her friends
instruction. She then
recounted the process and its result when we were acknowledging successes
had with "Feeling Dissolve"© in a workshop in
Montali, Italy. October 1988.
27.Vera a repeat participant told me of this experience in
a workshop in Berlin in November 1998. She also wrote it down for me for
documentation purposes.
28.A complete list of the variety of expressions used to
define these seven energy consuming feelings and the other four energy
generating ones, can be found in the appendix of words in my book.
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