| The Miracle of Healing
Feelings by Maud Nordwald Pollock, Human Potentials
Consultant.
For 16 years, through workshops given primarily in
Europe, I have been teaching healing with the hands based on Therapeutic
Touch, consciousness and
transformation. Through out those years as I transformed and expanded so
did my workshops. I added other elements, to compliment the basic
Therapeutic Touch treatment approach that I taught, as I learned it from
the pioneer of this movement at New York University in 1983.
In a 1988 workshop organized by the Bern Swiss
Nursing Association, for their members, a key experience triggered a
profound shift in the focus of my work, from that of teaching principally
how to use the hands to help the self- healing of others, to one of
healing first of all ourselves. It happened during the sharing. After
experiencing a guided imagery to reinforce their self- love, and assist
the prospective healers to act out of love rather than need (i.e. the
helper syndrome.) Upon discovering her own lack of self love while telling
of her experience, one of my participants exclaimed in despair, "How can
we help to heal and love others unconditionally when we don’t even know
how to love ourselves.!" A poignantly remark that touches the core of our
being, for it a truth for the majority of us. I realized at that moment
that it was as, if not, more important, that the focus of my workshop
direct itself to helping my participants to heal themselves, while
learning how to heal others
Out of this realization come a body of work, an
approach, a philosophy of life and a method of self-help, self -healing
and for healing others that I call Feeling Dissolve©. The roots of this work are found in my own
life process, and have culminated in the present work. As early as the
1960's due to marital problems I was exposed to the work of Dr. Albert
Ellis’s Rational Therapy. His approach deeply affected my life and through
therapy with him, and by reading his books, I learned to shifted my
thinking from rationalizing to reasoning. His most profound statement to
me at the time, a reassuring "You are worthy because you are." In time I
learned that, there is however, a vast difference between thinking,
believing this intellectually and knowing this truly in the heart. Through
my own suffering I found that this mental approach worked only up to a
point. I could reason the why of something, but I could not remove the gut
feeling of anger or fear of it. So it was as if I had learned the alphabet
from A to M yet was missing N to Z. When in the early 80's I come across
Eugene Gedlin’s work called "Focusing" it fascinated me enough to take
workshops, read the book and do the exercises. Although this method
provided an understanding, I could not or was not ready to connect to the
method. Some years later I come across another method, known as the
"Sedona Release" technique. Based on the precepts of Buddhism, it
originated from a man called Lester Levinson. The basis of this work
consisted of looking at the feeling and at that time, by using a verbal
excise, to let the feeling go, Releasing it. I found from my experience
that this worked sometimes and not others. The primary focus of this
approach was to rid oneself of the feeling, which would then affect ones
attitude and get rid of the problem. Similar in approach to putting ones
problems in a balloon and letting it go. Like many methods I found that
the intent of this one, was to empower the individual, while taking
responsibility for his/her feelings, but inadvertently this could become
simply a mental exercise of doing it, to satisfy the ego. The focus of
this work I realized did not encourage the individual’s transcendence out
of ego into egolessness, the point of Buddhism and other spiritual schools
of thought, but reinforced the ego-centeredness.
And yet something in this approach synthesized all
my previous experiences and helped them fall into place. I had an AHA!!!.
The possibility of system that completed that unresolved alphabet was at
hand, N to Z were in sight. Years of being on my own spiritual quest,
starting 1974, had exposed me to innumerable methods, teachings and
spiritual schools of thought, working on myself gave me psychotherapeutic
understandings, and most of all through my work with Therapeutic Touch I
was experientially familiar with the subtle vibratory anatomy of the human
energy system. My approach to healing took into account various subtle
energy bodies, some of them first re-introduced into modern awareness, by
the work and clairvoyant gift of Barbara Ann Brennan, in her book "Hands
of Light". The images of her clairvoyant impressions confirmed what I had
been feeling with my hands for years, but could not explain with the
information available until then. I realized that what my hands had been
experiencing were the vibrations of emotional feelings contained in this
energetic structure I call the Feeling Body. They were the feelings, not
thoughts, those feelings that I and others were unable to rationalize
away. There are information systems at a subtle level, that collects, hold
and store vibratory qualities in diverse subtle energy bodies. In working
with participants and their feelings I become aware that ‘everyday’
feelings are contained in the Feeling Body - whereas older, conditioning
deeply unconscious feelings, are retained feeling information of a Karmic
nature, found in another vibratory system I call the Astral Body. (This
information is described in depth in my book "From the heart through the
hands" Unconditional Love and Therapeutic Touch, published in several
European countries, not yet available in English in the USA.)
As my work with energy healing proceeded I was
accessing certain vibratory information that had certain qualities, but at
first I did not know what these meant. Eventually I put two and two
together and realized that by pulling out certain vibrations, collected
and contained in certain areas of the body I was in fact accessing this
feeling memory. These collected vibrations that in turn affects our
thinking and interfere with the flow of vital or Etheric energy, and
ultimately the health of our physical body.
What exactly is Feeling Dissolve©. ? What is its purpose and what does it
do?
Feeling Dissolve©. is not only a method, a vibratory technique of moving and removing
stuck energy. By interacting with this energy we are able to clear, one
could say purify our light body system, in essence heal ourselves. This
helps us more readily to fulfill our purpose here on earth, with clarity
of mind and a full heart. The ensuing clarity enables us to recognizing
the sense of our presence in matter and enjoy our life, our work and see a
value to it all. Consequently there is a reason for using Feeling
Dissolve©. The insights that are furthered by the application of this tool,
are found in the eternal spiritual truths. So Feeling Dissolve©. provides a
philosophy which define a way of life. The ultimate purpose is to help us
achieve the state of Unconditional Love. The philosophical approach of
Feeling Dissolve©. parallels many of the old traditional
teachings, bringing these knowings into a new light with a more
contemporary and immediate context. As a thinking approach, it fits into
all religious models, because ultimately all models have one prevailing
goal, that being, for the individual to connect to the divine, integrate
the divine, be one with the Devine. To live the Devine in everyday life.
Feeling Dissolve©. facilitates that goal. It supplements
traditional and lengthy practices that might help us achieve that goal,
with fast, simple, practical, although demanding, means of interacting
with ourselves and the world. Feeling Dissolve©.
uses the world and the experiences there in, as a
continuous mirror of our state of being, allowing our reaction to
unpleasant events, to remind us of our own unresolved issues. By
implementing this method we are encouraged to constantly look the shadow
in ourselves in the eye, regardless of how painful it is. But then, the
miracle of miracles, once recognized we are able to resolve, transform,
transcend the feelings awakened by this shadow, neutralizing the pain, the
anger, the hurt, the fear, the guilt, the shame or whatever. It is, as I
have observed through the processes of my participants throughout the
years, a marvelous approach, quick, easy to use on ourselves and as a very
efficient and powerful healing tool for others.
A brief explanation of this method is called for,
its underlaying philosophy and the technique that allows us to do
Feeling Dissolve©.
Let us for a moment consider the state of grace
that we are in, before we being born into matter. We can imagine
ourselves immersed in love, peace, harmony, wisdom and joy. We belong,
are safe and secure yet when we enter matter, are born into time and
space, we become estranged from this state. Being separated from that
supreme love, but remembering it at the core of our being, creates a
yearning, a deep yearning for this love and sense of belonging that
makes us feel completely secure and one with all. Here in time and space
we can reach this state of oneness with the divine, it is experienced
when we reach what I called "the fifth state of consciousness" A
characteristic of this state of consciousness is an acceptance of events
and people, the things of this reality, as being neither good nor bad.
This vision provokes a feeling free state of wisdom and empathy, a state
of Unconditional Love. The scope of Feeling Dissolve©. is to enable us to move out of separation and
beyond judgment, into oneness, wholeness, even genuine
holiness.
Any thinking must provide guidelines, a structure,
that enable us in this case to help us to master our emotions. Here are
abbreviated precepts and guidelines:
The basic precept of
Feeling Dissolve©. is that feelings
are collected vibrations that interfere, influencing our ability to think,
they are the source of judgment. Consequently the refusing to accept
things as they are, is based on a feeling provoking judgment. Stockpiled
feelings cost us energy and distort our ability to reason. There is only
one fundamental and unalterable rule on which Feeling Dissolve©.
rests. It is as follows: "Any person, event or place I want
to change, any thing I want different from the way it "is" stimulates a
feeling in me, a feeling that can be dissolved."
But how can we identify what feelings we are
having?
I have classified feelings into two types of
categories of energy consuming feelings. They are the two primary
categories. The first category I call "Lack of Love", it reflects our need
for love. For example: Any experience we have, in which we feel rejected,
insulted, not appreciated, hurt, don't feel loved by another, is reflected
by this category. This feeling of not feeling loved, is not caused by the
other not making us feel like we are loved, although it seems so. It is
simply a reminder via the other, of our state of disconnectedness from the
fundamental eternal love source. That makes us feel unloved, unworthy, is
an expression of a lack of trust in all and what we really are,
magnificent divine, eternal beings of light. Denying this of ourselves,
necessitates negating it of others, unable to allow ourselves to feel love
for ourselves, we are unable to love others as they are, unconditionally.
Simply said, what the others are doing, when we feel hurt due to their
actions, is to stimulate or remind us that we "Lack love" for ourselves.
Feeling unloved makes us insecure, impotent and needy.
If feeling loved makes us feel secure and in
control, then the consequence of not having felt loved is that it produces
a feeling of disempowerment. When we feel disempowered we tend to
compensate. One of the ways to try to feel powerful, is to try to have
control over others, by using verbal control, emotional, by physical use
of violence, fear and other means. This sense of power is based on an
illusionary interplay, actually we can ‘only’ control ourselves, what we
think and do. Others do and think what they want, we really have no real
power to control that, always, all the time. Wanting to control or
thinking that we are in control is an illusion. Every soul does exactly
what its meant to do, in an agreed to cooperation and co-creation. Feeling
not in control is expressed by the second primary category of feelings, I
call it "Lack of Influence". It reflects feelings of disempowerment and
lack of influence over situations, events and people.
We start with two primary categories of energy
consuming feelings, "Lack of Love" and "Lack of Influence".
These primary categories are fundamental to
identifying nondescript, unclear, indefinable feelings, or working on
situations with collection of feeling. We can however recognize particular
feelings by dividing the two primary feeling categories into groups of
seven archetypal energy consuming feelings. Feelings being unpleasant
reminders of whatever, wants to be kept at bay, out of the way, forgotten.
The more we try to forget, or suppress a feeling the stronger it gets, the
more it possesses us, the more energy it costs to keep it under control.
Feelings sit in our vibratory Feeling Body like any number of pressure
cookers, ready and willing to blow. Since we do not want to confront all
this suppressed feeling energy, we counter balance using a great deal of
energy to keep the lids on and the feelings under control. The names of
these feelings are considered according to the energy required to keep
them under control. The most energy consuming feeling is HOPELESSNESS, a
subcategory of "Lack of Influence" simplified "LI"; the second most energy
consuming feeling is PAIN, sorrow, a subcategory of "Lack of Love",
simplified "LL"; the third, but less energy consuming feeling is FEAR a
subcategory of "LI"; the fourth, again less energy consuming feeling, is
GUILT a subcategory of "LL"; the fifth is DESIRE, wanting, a subcategory
of "LI"; the sixth is ANGER, a subcategory of "LI" Anger uses less energy
because it can be expressed. Great amounts of unexpressed anger leads to
depression. Deeply felt unexpressed Pain can transforms itself into Anger.
The last and least energy consuming feeling is ARROGANCE, it is a
subcategory of "LL".
Up to now we have been examining energy consuming
feelings. There are also feelings that generate
energy. The first of these is VALOR, reflected by
courage. The courage to undertake something, which is stimulated by a
charge of energy. Valor is not always a pristine feeling, because its
motivating factor can be Anger. The ideal motivation to undertake
anything, is when it is stimulated by LOVE. Unconditional Love. Love for
the victim and for the victimizer. The fifth state of consciousness. Valor
that is conditioned by feeling, based on principles expresses judgments.
The next energy generating state, is that of ACCEPTANCE. Acceptance is
beyond feeling, it a state in which things, people, situations simply ARE.
It is a state of "IS"ness. Things are neither good nor bad they simply
"are". The more we are in ACCEPTANCE the more we experience the state of
HARMONY, which is peace, the next state. Ultimately out of HARMONY
prevails UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. This is a state of bliss, of
oneness.
The above mentioned, are the feelings we can have.
Energy consuming ones which when transformed become states of VALOR,
ACCEPTANCE, HARMONY and UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Energy consuming feelings that
are not transformed are feelings of, HOPELESSNESS, PAIN, FEAR, GUILT,
DESIRE, ANGER, ARROGANCE. There are literally hundreds of words by which
we define feelings, ultimately they are all simply variations of a theme,
that can be reduced to these 11 terms Some examples: Boredom, a minimal
reflection of Hopelessness, Despair another. Anxiety is another word for
Fear; Wanting is one for Desire, Rage is one for Anger; Forgiving as the
term is commonly used, expresses Arrogance. To forgive someone is to
assume someone has done something wrong. This is a judgment. Since there
is neither right nor wrong, there is nothing to forgive. In ourselves or
of others. Feeling wronged, places us into a stance of victim and the
other into the role of victimizer, an unequal position. From the fifth
state of consciousness we accept that we are co-creators, creating
experiences for lesson learning purpose, to enable us to recognizing and
transcend the held feelings. In this case by using
Feeling Dissolve©.
.HOW "FEELING
DISSOLVE" ©
WORKS
Feelings, of which the vibratory quality can be
experience with Therapeutic Touch, accumulate in the Feeling Body.
Feelings, even though we name them, are abstract something that we feel as
uncomfortable some where in our body. Over the years of working with this
method, I discovered that one of the fastest ways to access accumulated
feelings, and enable us to recognize how intense, big or small or old the
feeling is, is to give it a form. The system works on the same principle
as that of the wave and the particle. An electron is a wave, until
attention is focused on it, in the form of a lazar beam. The moment a
lazar contacts the wave the electron becomes a particle. The same thing
happens with feelings, these abstract something, that float like drifting
clouds, around and though us, often getting stuck in specific areas of the
physical body, were they can cause discomfort, pain or disease. When we
think of an event we experience this abstract something somewhere in or
about our physical body. This can be inside or on the surface. By
localizing this abstract something we are attending to it, by giving it a
form, we are making it tangibly concrete. The imagined form can be an
object that has a size, volume, can be a container with something in it.
It can be large or small, have a color, feel heavy or dense, even have a
smell, taste or sound. After recognizing the feeling, accepting it, if you
will, it can then be dissolved.
Removing (dissolving) a feeling, is a two step
process. By using the creative imagination we are able to give the feeling
a context, in keeping our attention on the image, we observe it, as it
changes until it disappears. Simultaneously the vibratory quality that
represent this feeling is energetically perceived and then helped out of
the system by using the hands, sweeping, using a brushing out and away
motion of the hand, similar to techniques use in Therapeutic Touch. By
pulling, stroking the energy out of the system, away from the area it was
initially located, this image linked feeling is swept permanently out of
the body, with the help of the hands. Simultaneously the image is
observed, until it too has completely disappeared. The two processes
happen in unison, stimulating a deep sigh, when the feeling is finally
gone. The famous mystic and clairvoyant Hildegard von Bingen mentions in
her writings that sighing is healing. Removing this energy information is
like pulling out a piece of a puzzle, which leaves a void, an empty space.
To reinforce and protect this newly created fee space, to complete the
process, the space were the feeling was previously located is perceived
filled with light. This can be like turning on a light switch in a dark
room. If the space cannot be filled with light or the light does not fill
all of it, it is a clue, that other feelings, perhaps related to that same
situation, or deeper more obtrusive ones, are still lurking in that area,
The Feeling Dissolve©. procedure
needs to be repeated, until the space fills completely with
light.
Once the feeling has been dissolved, the individual
checks back in thought to the event that stimulated the feeling. If the
procedure is successful, the event will be neutralized, seem never to have
happened, moves far away and/or new insight into the situation is
accessed. Complicated as it sounds, actually, like any new learning, once
we are familiar with it, the process is very easy, uncomplicated,
extremely fast and immensely successful. I have been able to resolved deep
traumas of sexual abuse carried in the psyche of the individual for years,
in minutes.
Years of experience have shown me that in our
multi-dimensionality we are more complicated than I imagined, yet things
are simpler to deal with than we can imagine. By creating metaphors for
our feelings, Feeling Dissolve©. saves us from
having to suffer the experience of reliving our traumas with all its
emotional intensity. We can accept the symbolic metaphor much more
readily, which facilitates our confronting and dissolving them in moments.
By actively using Feeling Dissolve©.
, we can learn to observe ourselves from moment to moment.
The paradox is, the more we use it the less we need it. And although a
life that is lived, never ceases to be a challenge for growth. These ups
and downs change configuration, the spaces between the downs becoming ever
greater, less frequent, and when these come the time spent confronting
them shorter and shorter. Weeks of suffering are reduced to days, days to
hours, hours to minutes.
The consequence of all this is that life becomes
clearer, more joyful, harmonious, creative. Neediness disappears, replaced
by satisfaction, faith and purpose. The purpose to experience our light,
be light, share light and love, with one and all, all the time, any where.
As we master our Feeling Body, our Mental Body becomes master, enabling us
to access wisdom and clarity. At a higher frequency, the consequence of
clearing out held feelings from Feeling Body, is that we are able to clear
out older held dross of the Astral Body, clearing the way so that the
frequency of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE can permeate our being. The Etheric Body
responsible for our health, is less stressed, functions better, and the
capacity to heal ourselves is increased monumentally by allowing the
energy to flow freely from body to body. This permits the innate knowing
of the higher frequency to support our good health. This last phase should
not be desired or strived for, it is a process that happens easily, by
itself as we move from moment to moment with ever more faith, clarity,
wisdom, joy, harmony and love. The miracle, to get to the aforementioned
state, and that we are able to transform ourselves in such a gentle,
relatively easy way. And most of all, that once Dissolved these feelings
and that relevant situation is non event for ever. That is a true
miracle!!
The steps defined as they are in my forthcoming
book "Eleven Steps to Emotional Balance
and Clarity of Mind" How to use "Feeling
Dissolve"© to reduce stress,
increase Emotional Intelligence by mastering the emotions
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